It hurts! It really hurts!! I couldn’t remember being hit
from our fight but somehow I had the worst body ache ever! My elbows were sore,
my right cheek felt warm, my head was banging, and my eyes were burning.
Everything hurts.
As I lay in bed, I tried to cast my mind back to the night
before? What happened? The evening had seemed so perfect; dinner was amazing. I
remember the candles, the beautiful rose petals, the soft music, the wine, his
soft fingers stroking me… it was perfect. He was such a romantic man regardless
of our issues. His subtle brown eyes made me melt each time he looked at me; he
was supposed to be the one, everyone said so.
Nothing makes sense at this moment. I feel like I had been to
Heaven but suddenly dropped thousands of miles down to Earth... It really hurts.
Flashes of him smacking me filled my mind… did this really
happen? I tried to move, my waist had a mind of its own… it didn’t respond. A sharp
pain shot up my back, jolting my memory.
The night was planned to be perfect…
six months of pain and joy, laughter and tears, pleasure and hurt. It was a
roller-coaster! an adventure of my mind, my body and my soul.
He had hit me
many times before but none compares to this! Surely this man was destined to be
my karma, for my many sins of fornication and rebellion.
I reached out to feel his side of the bed, nothing. I felt
nothing too…this was God’s plan for me, I believed it was. He had sent me here
to be disciplined, to learn the art of submission, to live the life of a virtuous
woman – somehow I think I’d be dead before these lessons pay off.
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